COMEBACK

It's almost 2015. Omg i cant believe how fast time flies. I survived another year of misery, wonder, pain, well-spent, back-breaking, emotional riding year where so many thing happened and many thing we've been through. But now, its time to prepare for a whole new ball game (its what i say every year)

So, another 2 semester of INTEC and then God knows what. I will just have to survive another 6 months. Okay? Make a comeback for my grades and IELTS omg dont even get me started with IELTS. sighhhhh

Its been a while since ive blogged and i have no idea what to write about. its so awkward like remember when you're on a very long holiday and then school starts and suddenly your hand feels retarded because you dont know how to write? yes, its like that right now.


A random thought,
What if i make a fanfic here? sounds cool. but im not good in writing stories. damnnnn but if i do, what and who will it be about ?

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Reflection

It has been a hell of a rollercoaster lately; physically and emotionally. I've realised that I am becoming someone that I know I have always been, but I didnt expect it to be so soon. I know I am like this, always had, but I cant believe it emerged already. Congratulations, you succeeded bro. Unleashed the Beast.

I have a talent in pretending, faking and hiding myself from the truth. Im an expert if i want to be, trust me. But most of the time, i would just say and show what i feel just to give a slight hint to those around just to see who's observing, who would concern and who would just ignore and dont give a shit. You can say its like a test or something but whatever. But all and all, i know i suck the world doesnt have to constantly remind me. But as pretty suck as I am, i know im better than a whole lot of people because i dont do and think the way some people do and who the heck cares. Selfish? Dont give a damn as long as what i am doing is right for me and right for a certain others than i dont think there'e anything wrong with it.

And i hate pretenders and fakers so effing much probably because i CHOOSE not to be fake and NOT to pretend even though i know i have the chance to. Just because im good at it, does that mean i HAVE to do so? NO !! Basically, the world does not revolve around you, you didnt even own it. so just STFU. In everybody's life, everybody is the main actor and everybody is important. You wont be thinking others is much more important in YOUR world right. Im not talking about family, siblings or any other closely related members that you will reject and refute on. Yes i know that. But tell me how many people wont think about themselves in every situation. Exactly. It is YOUR OWN freaking life. Why would you let others take the lead.You settle in for your own life.

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Finished THE FAULT IN OUR STARS *fireworks* *confetti*  OMG I read. I actually read. Gosh i cant believe myself. Hahahahahaha *patting myself at the back* For me, its a good story. Different from others and the words written is simple and easy to read. Maybe thats why i get to finish it and didnt think it as a heavy book. My sister asked me which part makes me cry like hell (so what? can someone cry reading a book?) , well maybe i was just me; You know, for someone who didnt read much who came across an emotional-stirring book, of course i would cry. Compared to her. She reads everything of course she read something else that is more dramatic and heart-breaking. Duuuuuhhh ~

Oh there's this on time, in Biology class, we learned about cell and organelles and the whole thingnamajig, and i came across "Omnit cellular e cellular" or something like that. And i literally remembered it from that book. I mean, the first time i see that phrase is in that book and the next day, i learned it in class. Omg i was so hyped !! Hahahahaha i feel like Gosh, we really CAN learn something new when we read. HAHAHAHAHA well, i knew that already but that feeling . . . .

Okay? Okay.
The world is not a wish-granting factory.

XOXO

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MIRACLES IN DECEMBER

I’m struggling to find you who I cannot see
I’m struggling to find you who I cannot hear
I see things that I couldn’t see before
I hear things that I couldn’t hear before
After you left me, I have grown a power that I didn’t have before

The selfish me who has only thought about myself
The me who didn’t know your feelings and ignored it
I couldn’t believe myself that I have changed this much
Your love can still move me like this

If I just think of you, I can fill this world with you
Because each snowdrop is one tear drop that belongs to you
But theres just one thing that I can’t do and it’s to make you come to me
I hope I don’t have this miserable power

The selfish me who has only thought about myself
The me who didn’t know your feelings and ignored it
I couldn’t believe myself that I have changed this much
Your love can still move me like this

Stopping the time, (I) go back to you
I open this book of memories and I open up your page
And in the book I’m in there, in there with you

The small and weak person, because of your love
Just like this for everything (my whole existence)
I changed the whole world

The me who didn’t know how to be thankful for love
The me who thought that the end was the end
To the image of you who wanted me to be, I fixed myself everyday
I think my love will continue on forever

Stopping the time, (I) go back to you
I open this book of memories and I open up your page 
And in the book I’m in there, in there with you
The things that I met that winter

I’m struggling to find you who I cannot see
I’m struggling to find you who I cannot hear

xoxo

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Would You ?

If I could take away the pain and put a smile on your face
Baby I would, baby I would
If I could make a better way, so you could see a better day
Baby I would, baby I would, I would

Paint a doorway to the sky and hand you the keys,
Let you know that you're always welcomed so that you never leave
Buy you all those fancy things that you only see on tv, yeah
Run away, to our hideaway, we be living the american dream
And i, know it's never gonna be that easy
But I know that it won't hurt us to try

If I could take away the pain and put a smile on your face
Baby I would, baby I would
If I could make a better way, so you could see a better day
Baby I would, baby I would, I wouldWo-oh, wo-oh, wo-oh baby I would

To the love forever wide, so that it never runs dry
Anytime you ask me why I'm smiling, say that I'm satisfied
You got your flaws and so do i,
Past lovers that made you cry
And though I wanna make it right
I just cant read your mind

And i, know it's never gonna be that easy
But I know that it won't hurt us to try

If I could take away the pain and put a smile on your face
Baby I would, baby I would
If I could make a better way, so you could see a better day
Baby I would, baby I would, I would

Wo-oh, wo-oh, wo-oh baby I would

Yeah it's not about what I want
It's all about what you need
I know that he hurt you, but that wasnt me
And I know, and I know sometimes it's hard to see
That all we need to be

If I could take away the pain and put a smile on your face
Baby I would, baby I would
If I could make a better way, so you could see a better day
Baby I would, baby I would, I would

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